Truth is... it's only Tuesday but I have a whole bunch of stuff rattling around in the noggin, so here we go.
Truth is... My health symptoms have seemed to have settled down a bit. The RA medicine (for Malaria) seems to be taking the edge off the foot pain and I was even able to go for a 3.5 mile walk after work the other day. And while my hands are still occasionally going numb at night, eating clean (no preservatives/processed foods) and free of refined sugar has helped tremendously. The hormones they have me on have alleviated much of the abdominal pain and resolved the concerning cysts, however I have started to have some signs of depression and have succumbed to the nasty side effect of weight gain (15 pounds) which isn't really helping any of the situation.
Truth is... I should just put on my big girl panties and deal with it, but sadly, they no longer fit.
Truth is... neither do my jeans. I may need to go shopping.
Truth is... at the next appointment, I will be telling them I want off the hormones. I just don't feel like me. I can't get excited, sad, truly happy.... just blah. It's not good, pen pals. Not good at all.
Truth is... I took on another wedding dress to alter. As I left the house with it, her brother in law said to me, "Now take good care of that dress. We're gonna need it soon." I had to laugh. Somehow I think taking every seam apart and putting it all back together would not be considered "taking care of it". I wonder what he'd think if he saw the dress as it sits now... in six pieces in my bedroom. All and all I am hoping it isn't too much of a nightmare to get back together, and it will give me some extra cash to get the trim we desperately need to replace on the house.
Truth is... we've decided to replace it with the "plastic wood" trim, since it never needs to be painted and doesn't rot. It's pricey, but worth it in the end if it means no maintenance.
Truth is... my birthday is in 33 days. It snuck up on me folks. I fear I have not finished all my 40 before 40 items. Particularly since I didn't really have a list per say, just seized the opportunities as they came along. But hey... I figure I'll have plenty of time to work on my 50 before 50 list, right?
Truth is... I was looking forward to spending my 40th in Bermuda. But as with everything, I've learned that I need to just roll with the situation, and the truth is it's just not a good time for us to be leaving the country right now. Nor do I really have the cash-o-la. So, I'm thinking a nice dinner out, and maybe finally getting us a big kid bed and real furniture for the bedroom. Maybe.
Truth is... my boss decided (using the term loosely, as it really wasn't his decision) that I need to have a reduction in my workload as they won't pay me for the volume of work I am currently doing. Now, I knew this was coming, and in truth he may not get to doing this for a while, but I am just not prepared for the pay cut this time around. The last time it was $400 a month that I had offset by paying off a loan, therefore making it a wash. This time there's nothing to pay off. Needless to say it's going to be a tough adjustment. Manageable, but tight.
Truth is... because of this, I'm thinking a new gym membership may be out of the question. I am signing up for a Thursday Yoga class though through our local recreational department. The hope is that I'll regain some flexibility in my legs again... and that I won't fart in class.
Pay cuts suck; been there done that, not fun. Sad that I'm making 1/2 of what I used to when I started with the company 8 years ago and still doing the same amount of work.
ReplyDeleteI agree, if you can get off the hormones, that would be better, but glad it seems you are feeling a touch better, but wouldn't want the side effects of the weight gain indeed!
betty
The pay cut also comes with a cut of workload as well, so I'm not complaining so much about that. I'm really not complaining at all, so much as just stating that it will be hard to get used to again. The plus side I guess is that when it does happen, I'll have a bit more free time NOT at work, which is always a good thing. :)
DeletePay cuts do indeed suck. And you don't need that anxiety.
ReplyDeleteIf you don't feel right on the hormones, then tell them. If they won't listen, find a new doctor. With all the other stuff you have going on, you're the expert on what you feel. They should respect that.
I see them the end of October and I don't suspect it will be an issue. I can switch back to what I've been on for the last 10 years, just maybe with some tweaking of the dosage. They went with the hormones because it would be an immediate remedy of the cysts, vs one that would happen over time. Now that they are controlled, I think I should be able to switch back.
DeleteEither that year between birthdays flew by, or you're having two a year. Sorry to hear about the pay cut, but God will provide. And remind me not to sit by you in yoga class.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for all the blah. I mentioned you on my blog on Monday. I found a great restaurant especially for you.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Janie
Birthdays just seem to sneak up on us sometimes. I am sure you will find a wonderful way to celebrate. Forty is a great age to be and I wish you all best with all the changes and stuff going on in your life at the moment. Sending hugs
ReplyDeleteOh, the birthdays. Mine's in a couple weeks as well. Likely won't do much to celebrate, although I'd hoped to kick off my 40/40 list by being in the Keys. Like your Bahamas, it just isn't going to happen.
ReplyDeleteTruth is... I went from "life is good" to "blah". So feeling you on that one there. I'd say chin up and all that, but it would be hypocritical of me. Here's hoping the week gets better!
Just change your list to "40 in my 40s"! Make your 40s the time of your life. I'm right behind you, mine is in March. Doesn't seem possible, does it!?
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